“Welcome dear, I am Miss. Danae, teacher of Formalities, welcome.”
When Christine heard the woman speak, her ears twitched underneath her cap. Her voice was like velvet and her nose tickled from the scent of the fresh, warm tea that surrounded her. Her eyes focused intently on the woman, now known by Miss Danae, her teacher for this class.
Christine noticed that Miss Danae moved like an angel or a ghost, gliding rather than stepping across the floor, as Christine's eyes trailed up from her feet to her face, entranced by this wonderful model of perfection.
When Christine felt her touch, it sent shivers through her skin and felt like fire. Her ears perked underneath her cap and her fingers threatened to clench around the teacup as she barely managed to hold it gently. She was not use to people touching her, the only other person to touch her was Martha and she had such a gentle way about her. Miss Danae's touch was gentle but it did not mimic that of Christine's beloved Martha.
Christine watched as Miss Danae poured her tea. It had been years since anyone had poured her tea. She was reminded of a memory sitting in the kitchen at home, feet dangling off of the chair as Martha bustled about the kitchen to gather together afternoon tea. Christine sat and watched the opaque, brown liquid pour steaming from the kettle into her little cup and she would always look up at Martha with her big brown eyes and beg for extra cream. Martha would laugh---
Christine's was brought back from her memory with the words Miss Danae were speaking but she felt slightly embarrassed now that she had let her mind wander like that. She wanted to speak up, to ask her to repeat herself but she was in a formalities class, would it be rude of her to do so? She had to ponder on this for a moment, but...would that cause her to lose more information from this kind woman? Christine visibly shook her head again, bringing herself back to focus as her teacher sat down in front of her.
“Now a lady sits straight, alluring. You look around the table presenting yourself with poise, dignity, and attention. When I do this…what do you feel that I feel?”
As her teacher began to slouch and twist, all Christine could do was stare at her teacher in wonderment. Her laugh filled her ears and made them twitch again under the cap as watching her teacher writhe and twist and make a fool of herself made Christine's own attention to her posture become a bit straighter, have her hands fold in her lap a bit neater and the attention to how her legs were crossed more apparent.
When Miss Danae spoke towards the box sitting in front of her, Christine's curiosity peaked and she was ready to delve into the depths of that tiny box to find out what lay inside. Just as she was inching towards the box, her teachers words hit her ears...."
“In Formalities, you not only introduce yourself to others, but you find your inner self and expose it. Now, the reason I did not ask you for your name, is that you must be confident enough to sell yourself to me. For you to be the center of my attention. You tell me who you are, why you are here, and what Formalities are?”
"Crap!" Christine thought. All this time Miss Danae was speaking and she had not said a word, not even a simple thank you for pouring her tea, which she still had not taken a sip of. She sat dumbfounded in her seat and was now apparent of just how silly and rude she must have looked from her teachers point of view. Christine held her head low for a short moment in revere to silently apologize to her dear Martha, after all the years of her teachings to be polite and kind to strangers, was thwarted in mere moments at the smell of cream and a box of goodies.
Her teachers words had yet to sink in, but slowly Christine lifted her head and gazed her teacher in the eyes, seeing their stark blue penetrate her own brown to the very core, as if searching for her words without them needing to be spoken. "Find my inner self? Expose myself..." she thought. It was to go against everything that Martha had taught her, exposing herself would mean trouble, experiments or freak-shows or worse, death. Christine wasn't confident, she had prided herself on being a wall-flower in public. Being less noticeable worked for her. She didn't want to be the center of anyones attention...and yet she found the words pushing their way past her lips, moving through her like word vomit, pushing past even though she tried to fight it.
"My name is Christine Oxh--"
Just as her voice started to fill the room with her reply, she was cut off by the interruption of a woman with violet hair.
“ Excuse me are you Lady Margo?”
Christine would make note on this day that this woman in front of her looked stunning, or maybe it was just that she was wearing her favorite colors...but either way, Christine's words were halted and her attention, as well as her teachers, was on this young woman, eyes wide and silent and secretly thanking her for saving her from the embarrassment of not wanting to stand out. If this violet haired woman wanted the spotlight, she could carry it.
When Miss Danae was not angered by the interruption, however, it made Christine's respect for her grow even more-so. This woman carried herself with poise and respect and sensibility. These were qualities that Christine did admire so, but she was fearful to find them in herself, fearful to ever be exposed if she were to let herself be this flamboyant or exuberant.
“... it is beyond what we see, we know, it is what we feel. Use these hands and shift through these unknown pages.”
She listened to the words her new found teacher spoke, as she felt a welling of pride within herself. Christine looked down at her own hands, seeing that she still had not clipped her claws, the ends working their way to a sharp point and her attention was drawn back to the bag as she reached inside it to pull out the diary. When she gripped the pen between her fingers, her heart leapt and she could feel the excitement course through her. It was something she had not felt in a long time and she could feel tears pushing at the back of her eyes as she willed them to stay hidden. She placed a palm over the new diary, claiming it as hers and silently vowed that these pages would be filled with her story and her knowledge and her secrets.